unstableness

Lee posted usually well after midnight, partly because he had to avoid the unstableness of high traffic, to upload his daily quota, which was 25+ pages on average.

Or something perhaps.moving through space forwards but back at the same time, as if I consisted of anti-matter for ever cancelled out.as if in all our words and gestures, acts and attitudes we effected some sort of parallel penetration into whatever had originated them, their primeval atom, with built-in unstableness. (107-108/303-4)